I’m starting a new post series called WHAT IF. Throughout my life the universe has shown me many things which I continuously and simultaneously believe in and somewhat discard. The reason I discard them is because as soon as we are able to interpret the world around us, notions which are disconnected from our natural genetic tie to the energies of the universe attempt to numb our spiritual sensations. (Do not be afraid of the word spiritual, it is not tied to any religion). This skepticism has proved very useful, as I do not believe everything and anything. But in many minds, skepticism takes control and rules over all else, instead of striking a balance. And even then, you can miss out on many beautiful things by disbelieving so much. I hope to break through many established notions of governmental society and gives people the possibility to believe what their bodies and mind already understand.
Something that struck me recently was a comment made by “Jereme” over at HtmlGiant on an article titled What does it mean to be a young writer today. His comment was as follows:
you are misconstruing my definition of time.
your grandfather is 102 years according to gregorian or julian or mayan calendar?
yes, anything with a beginning has an ending. we can all agree on this tenet?
your grandfather is not a victim of time but a victim of his limits.
“102″ years old is nothing if he were to live 1000.
but he is at the limits of his body which has no concept of “time”
I will tell you of an experience I had with a time paradox.
In or around 2002 I dreamt an extremely vivid dream. I was at a party, in the backyard, on the porch, sitting down. A friend of mine was standing a few feet away talking to a young woman. In this dream, I could see everything as if I were awake. Hear the music. I was wearing my favorite grey sweater. The voices. I stood up from my chair and walked up to my friend and touched him on the shoulder, and so ended the dream. This short dream seems inconsequential, yes? And yet it was so vivid that for years, I thought about it at least twice or three times a year. It kept returning. I never dreamt it again. I just continued turning it around in my mind. Halloween weekend 2008 I went to a party with the friend in the dream. Earlier that day I was looking at the colors of the sky as reflected by the setting sun I couldn’t see easing down behind the trees, I felt something odd. I still don’t know what that feeling was, but I asked my friends if they believed in Deja Vu. We had a long discussion on whether it was good or bad or some sort of warning system. We let the conversation drop after a while because we decided to get drunk instead.
Later that night, as I arrived at the party and found a seat in the backyard, something felt strange. The air felt electrified. The universe felt as if it were humming. I was wearing my favorite blue jean jacket because the grey sweater I always loved to wear had a broken zipper. After the party began to die, I was sitting on a chair in the backyard, on the porch. And everything from my dream in 2002 aligned. It aligned exactly. I could see the dream and see reality as if it were a projector image coming into focus. These visual slides. What I mean is, there seemed to be another image of what I was seeing sliding over my “actual vision”. I stood up and went to touch my friend on the shoulder and the visual sensation ended. Days later I asked my friend if he’d ever been to that house, as my inner skeptic was asking(and this inner skeptic I believe is inherent in all humans, but very much so cultivated by society, and by society I mean not the people, but those dictating the status/rules/notions of said society). My friend said no. Neither had I.
Now, what I believe this is, is this: We are all multi-dimensional beings. The future self exists right now alongside the present and past self, but in different forms. I am not my future self because I have yet to have the experiences which make the future me, me. In my dream I did not know why I got up and touched the shoulder of my friend. I was only a passenger, existing simultaneously with a different self. At the party, in 2008, I was touching my friends shoulder because of the dream I was having in 2002. When you think of the past, when you call upon memories, strong memories (read: strong connections), I believe this is not simply a cerebral event regulated to the melded bone of your cranium, but actual gateways into the past. I can provide scientific evidence lending that this is more of a truer possibility than people would like to give credit to. But, not everything is stone-set. The zipper of my grey sweater breaking, so I resorted to my blue jacket. Little things. I am not even talking multiple realities, which I cannot and will not rule out. I am only making points on this specific timeline.
Atomic matter carries information, and can be imprinted by whatever objects it takes the form of. An atom doesn’t travel like a car from point A to D, meaning, it doesn’t go from point A to B to C to D. An atom teleports from A to D, skipping the points inbetween, it carries your information across, theoretically, dimensions. This is occurring as we speak, our atoms are popping. This doesn’t account for (although it touches upon) the mannerisms of subatomic particles. Just like how a zipper can break and change the clothes I am wearing but not the event, it is possible for a subatomic particle to change the clothes of an atom (where it teleports to) but not the act of teleporting. Now, WHAT IF time is not linear. I believe, based on this experience, that everything (future, past, present) is happening right now, simultaneously, side by side. You see, in my original dream I had no idea why I stood up and placed my hand on my friends shoulder. But, the reason I did that in the dream was because in the future I was recalling the dream I was having at that moment.
Yes. A paradox. But not everything is set in time. My sweater changed to a jean jacket. At the time I was living in a homeless shelter and we weren’t allowed to go at night, but the Chaplin was kind enough to let me leave, because, unknown to him, I felt this extreme need to leave and go where I needed to go. I had to get out of there this night, at that time. I believe time can exist in various timelines — all splitting. This is not a new theory. But I believe we experience multiple echoes of different timelines, showing us where we could go, that we are not our habits, we are not our “right nows”, we are multi-dimensional beings who are more than what this current incarnation of life has given us. And these echoes we experience from the seemingly infinite timelines that can/do exist, are what we have to choose from. The government has spent trillions of dollars testing these metaphysical properties. They know it exists and attempt to manipulate it. And to not allow us to believe in it, to develop a project to propagate disinformation in attempts to remove us from the universal truth, allows them to have a corner on the market, so to speak, and cause separation within the people that support a system which honestly would rather control and dominate than provide enlightenment and togetherness. E=mc2 lends truth to the “theory” that certain supposed metaphysical events exist. (By the way, I dislike the term metaphysical as it tends to mean to most people as above the physical, having nothing to do with the physical, being separate. When in truth, it is physically natural). E=mc2 means energy can be turned into matter, matter into energy, neither destroyed only transformed.