Saints won.

I know my family down in New Orleans is loving this. Don’t know how my dad feels, but I’m sure being a Saint he’s smiling. (dude has a t-shirt… like what? D’artagnan Martin Loves Me T-Shirt)

We needed this. New Orleans needed this.

It’s beautiful.

Jason Kane does a write up of ‘from Quantum Leap’

Jason Kane over at Eject! was kind enough to do a write up of from Quantum Leap which was published in December by Juked.

An excerpt from the review:

To summarize, Michael James Martin’s poem from Quantum Leap works. It is fragmented and joyous and desperate, communicating via vignettes run amok. They spill on top of one another, separated by disorienting “leaps” from one circumstance to the next. The sense is of futility; Dr. Sam Beckett’s self-imposed task was to repair what he could in any given situation.

Read the whole thing here.

Thanks Jason!

Brown as Black and Brown as White and Brown as Yellow and Brown as Red

I am amazed at how many writers are still deciding to call themselves White or Black, or writing books based on these wrong titles.

I find it amazing that something as simple as holding up one color against another color and realizing that this long history of mis-naming should be broken is not broken.

Especially by writers. If we are the users of language and understand how easy it is construct reality via the lingual and visual artefacts of language — why have we not made a consistent and strong effort to destroy the beliefs that an African-American individual is not black but brown. And a Caucasian individual is not white but brown. That all across the world, the language used to force separation between peoples is false, that we are various shades of the same.

If writers cannot hold their skin up to the actual color others say they are and see they are not that color… aren’t we lost to a system of control?

The new issue of Ep;phany — its cover:

The cover of the newest Ep;phany made me rethink Moses and the giant fish. The cover has a rock formation that looks like a fossilized giant fish. I didn’t notice it until after I couldn’t stop looking at it. What I mean is, I sat staring at this cover for no reason except I felt I had to look at it. I was missing something. And then it hit me. I turned it sideways a little. Freaky.

Here ya go: www.epiphanyzine.com/index.html

Things change

It is easy to become caught in the folds of the everything. You know, work, drama, ex-lovers who know how to move you, and they’re deciding they still want another piece of you. Easy to forget that although we’re truly WE, that the I is apparent and needs some love. Easy to fall into a community and the buzz of the hive mind. Harder to break away and feel comfortable with the true alone. It’s okay.

A woman used to appear around campus when I was alone and wanting to be alone (or rather having no other choice), and she kept saying, “IT GETS WORSE”. Whenever I thought I was alone, there she was with her “IT GETS WORSE”. The first time she said that, I said nothing. She stopped to talk to me about what I was writing and I told her it was a poem about a guy on an acid trip who seems big ass bunnies get out of a car and he kills them with a machine gun. As she left she said, “IT GETS WORSE” and I told her, no, it gets better.

Her response, “No it doesn’t.”

Inaugural ‘What If’ Series Post: Time paradoxes

I’m starting a new post series called WHAT IF. Throughout my life the universe has shown me many things which I continuously and simultaneously believe in and somewhat discard. The reason I discard them is because as soon as we are able to interpret the world around us, notions which are disconnected from our natural genetic tie to the energies of the universe attempt to numb our spiritual sensations. (Do not be afraid of the word spiritual, it is not tied to any religion). This skepticism has proved very useful, as I do not believe everything and anything. But in many minds, skepticism takes control and rules over all else, instead of striking a balance. And even then, you can miss out on many beautiful things by disbelieving so much. I hope to break through many established notions of governmental society and gives people the possibility to believe what their bodies and mind already understand.

Something that struck me recently was a comment made by “Jereme” over at HtmlGiant on an article titled What does it mean to be a young writer today. His comment was as follows:

you are misconstruing my definition of time.

your grandfather is 102 years according to gregorian or julian or mayan calendar?

yes, anything with a beginning has an ending. we can all agree on this tenet?

your grandfather is not a victim of time but a victim of his limits.

“102″ years old is nothing if he were to live 1000.

but he is at the limits of his body which has no concept of “time”

I will tell you of an experience I had with a time paradox.

In or around 2002 I dreamt an extremely vivid dream. I was at a party, in the backyard, on the porch, sitting down. A friend of mine was standing a few feet away talking to a young woman. In this dream, I could see everything as if I were awake. Hear the music. I was wearing my favorite grey sweater. The voices. I stood up from my chair and walked up to my friend and touched him on the shoulder, and so ended the dream. This short dream seems inconsequential, yes? And yet it was so vivid that for years, I thought about it at least twice or three times a year. It kept returning. I never dreamt it again. I just continued turning it around in my mind. Halloween weekend 2008 I went to a party with the friend in the dream. Earlier that day I was looking at the colors of the sky as reflected by the setting sun I couldn’t see easing down behind the trees, I felt something odd. I still don’t know what that feeling was, but I asked my friends if they believed in Deja Vu. We had a long discussion on whether it was good or bad or some sort of warning system. We let the conversation drop after a while because we decided to get drunk instead.

Later that night, as I arrived at the party and found a seat in the backyard, something felt strange. The air felt electrified. The universe felt as if it were humming. I was wearing my favorite blue jean jacket because the grey sweater I always loved to wear had a broken zipper. After the party began to die, I was sitting on a chair in the backyard, on the porch. And everything from my dream in 2002 aligned. It aligned exactly. I could see the dream and see reality as if it were a projector image coming into focus. These visual slides. What I mean is, there seemed to be another image of what I was seeing sliding over my “actual vision”. I stood up and went to touch my friend on the shoulder and the visual sensation ended. Days later I asked my friend if he’d ever been to that house, as my inner skeptic was asking(and this inner skeptic I believe is inherent in all humans, but very much so cultivated by society, and by society I mean not the people, but those dictating the status/rules/notions of said society). My friend said no. Neither had I.

Now, what I believe this is, is this: We are all multi-dimensional beings. The future self exists right now alongside the present and past self, but in different forms. I am not my future self because I have yet to have the experiences which make the future me, me. In my dream I did not know why I got up and touched the shoulder of my friend. I was only a passenger, existing simultaneously with a different self. At the party, in 2008, I was touching my friends shoulder because of the dream I was having in 2002. When you think of the past, when you call upon memories, strong memories (read: strong connections), I believe this is not simply a cerebral event regulated to the melded bone of your cranium, but actual gateways into the past. I can provide scientific evidence lending that this is more of a truer possibility than people would like to give credit to. But, not everything is stone-set. The zipper of my grey sweater breaking, so I resorted to my blue jacket. Little things. I am not even talking multiple realities, which I cannot and will not rule out. I am only making points on this specific timeline.

Atomic matter carries information, and can be imprinted by whatever objects it takes the form of. An atom doesn’t travel like a car from point A to D, meaning, it doesn’t go from point A to B to C to D. An atom teleports from A to D, skipping the points inbetween, it carries your information across, theoretically, dimensions. This is occurring as we speak, our atoms are popping. This doesn’t account for (although it touches upon) the mannerisms of subatomic particles. Just like how a zipper can break and change the clothes I am wearing but not the event, it is possible for a subatomic particle to change the clothes of an atom (where it teleports to) but not the act of teleporting. Now, WHAT IF time is not linear. I believe, based on this experience, that everything (future, past, present) is happening right now, simultaneously, side by side. You see, in my original dream I had no idea why I stood up and placed my hand on my friends shoulder. But, the reason I did that in the dream was because in the future I was recalling the dream I was having at that moment.

Yes. A paradox. But not everything is set in time. My sweater changed to a jean jacket. At the time I was living in a homeless shelter and we weren’t allowed to go at night, but the Chaplin was kind enough to let me leave, because, unknown to him, I felt this extreme need to leave and go where I needed to go. I had to get out of there this night, at that time. I believe time can exist in various timelines — all splitting. This is not a new theory. But I believe we experience multiple echoes of different timelines, showing us where we could go, that we are not our habits, we are not our “right nows”, we are multi-dimensional beings who are more than what this current incarnation of life has given us. And these echoes we experience from the seemingly infinite timelines that can/do exist, are what we have to choose from. The government has spent trillions of dollars testing these metaphysical properties. They know it exists and attempt to manipulate it. And to not allow us to believe in it, to develop a project to propagate disinformation in attempts to remove us from the universal truth, allows them to have a corner on the market, so to speak, and cause separation within the people that support a system which honestly would rather control and dominate than provide enlightenment and togetherness. E=mc2 lends truth to the “theory” that certain supposed metaphysical events exist. (By the way, I dislike the term metaphysical as it tends to mean to most people as above the physical, having nothing to do with the physical, being separate. When in truth, it is physically natural). E=mc2 means energy can be turned into matter, matter into energy, neither destroyed only transformed.

excerpts from The Last 20hrs of Mr. Knockwood

Plenty. About eighty sole survivors standing less inches apart and more a conglomerate of selves. Questions by bitchy children: You fart dust? And if you did fart dust how much skin does it have? How sour is it? Why I’m flabbergasted. Everyone knows everything now. How many brains does a frog have? Six months old and talking not only that but maintaining a conversation on the heavy stuff. NBC smells oily. Both oily and lacking like reduced fat oreos. I’m greeted nervously, tenderly, crush my hand if the wind blows. They smile. I’d like to see my dressing room though I’m already dressed. Jay Leno interviews me for his last show. He jokes about the McNally of my face and sidelines his eyes to his audience. Laugh. Don’t know if I crack a smile. Don’t know how many vienna sausage cans I went through before committing to airfare and a hotel in Vienna to task their sausages. It isn’t the same.

*

The bright. It all shining. My skin. My old skin. I can’t take the everywhere anymore. Open up the spaces beneath my fingernails and escavate what other excess bile of my chakras and deliver me something packaged and viewable as a gateway — how to see the death if never perceived and therefore never feared, in fact, such unfear reinforced.

And the dream died when I awoke. Though what survived I kept in a medium sized box able to fit in medium to large spaces.

A Discovery: Francesca Chabrier

Those brains, those brains right there — those’re mine. Francesca blew them all over the place, I mean, it is kind of a rude thing to do, but when the brain-explosion is so pleasurable, it really isn’t much of a big deal, really. Although I’d recommend making sure you have cleaning solvents on hand when reading her work, just in case.

Wolf in a field published a cache of her poems. All of them are equally good. But it is the second poem of the groupings, titled THE WORLD HAS TURNED AND LEFT ME HERE, which is just mwah:

You are getting a root canal
at a dentist’s office in Waco.
You do not live in Waco,
and you are still sleepy
from flying. When the stewardess
asked everyone to turn off
their electronic devices, they did,
but you left your walkman on.
The plane was descending
through the part of the sky
where you are in the clouds completely.
A woman was floating.
She was wearing wings
made out of tin foil.
You tapped on the window and said
are you god and she said yes I am god,
and she turned into a sharp edged silver ball.
The ball dropped down faster than the plane,
you felt so overcome
you ripped out your teeth.
When you arrived in Waco
there was a sign that said
Home of the Largest Tin Foil Ball.
There was a parade, you stayed to watch
your favorite band pass by on a float.
You were in pain, you threw your tooth
at the lead singer, he used it as a pick.

But be careful of of the first poem, You are Crunked in a Totally Green Dress, You are Paranormal… that one hurt my teeth.

A Discovery: Wayne Miller

I’m not really “in the poetry scene”. I write and read it, and still come across new poets no matter how prominent they may seem after I research them a little. Someone said, once, that some poets are a trickle to the ocean, others are a river, some are stronger rivers, etc. So the idea that you can be on wet earth and have to dig to find that massive river running underneath is distressing, but worthwhile. Her (I know this someone was a her that said this) analogy is right, but faulty. I don’t believe in trickles or rivers or oceans, I believe it as an entire body of water in movement. Singular. These separations or, perhaps more these, specifications/dissections of a “one thing” is perhaps why there are “camps” instead of true communities.

I first read Wayne Miller, I think, in the most recent Best American Poetry. This was nearly 4 months ago. I came across his poem IN THE BARRACKS: A FOUND POEM. I don’t want to ruin the experience of reading it, but perhaps you do not have access to the poem, so — it is about how a snipers bullet was stopped by blocking the windows/walls of the barracks with books. The poem moves at a quick pace. After the sniper shooting has stopped, one of the soldiers picks up the book, a thick monster of a book, called Treatise on the History of Western Europe (350p). The soldier opens up the book and there’s a halted bullet on a specific page, through a specific word, but we never find out the word. And AH! How this made me want to look up the Treatise and see what words could’ve been pierced to make the soldier contemplate what he contemplated (I will leave out exactly what he thought, so at least there will be one surprise for you if you happen to find it). I realized my palms were a bit sweaty after reading the poem and I had to wipe my palms and the book cover off, because, I’ll admit I hadn’t purchased the book, I was just in the store reading it (no money at the time). I reread it many times over. In a collection of poems that didn’t really “do it for me”, his poem will be worth the price alone.

But he’s not a one hit wonder, so to speak. I found an ‘old’ poem of his on Verse Daily called Street Fight. No explanations of it, you read it. It’ll be worth your time and the future-time you spend reading it again. Promise!

A poem at The Collagist which almost brought me to tears

Although it only nearly brought me to tears, it made me forget this sinus headache I’ve been aching about for two days. And for the seven or so minutes it took me to read and reread it, it was — what headache?

I don’t know what more to say about this poem by Reginald Dwayne Betts (his website). I mean, its just so heartbreaking and so essentially poetic in a different way without being arcanely poetic. Its gorgeous in its ugliness and sadness. It made me remember my homeboys who have lost their way. My boys who were real friends back in the day who now have tried to pull guns on me or who fell into drugs and then climbed back out that dungeon but blamed me for not holding onto the back of their clothes as they swerved around the watery sinkhole. And even though it wasn’t my fault, after reading this poem and writing how it made me feel, I apologize. I scream it in my head. I want them to know I’m sorry and maybe we aren’t friends now my brothers, you are all in my hearts (yes, even you, even you who disrespected my family that way).

Please read the poem over at The Collagist. He has two there.